I received the news with so much shock and disbelief particualrly because I didn't have enough time to hope for survivors, it was immediately revealed to me that there were none! It was one of those moments that you go from oh my God!! then No It can't be..... after going through all these emotions myself, I now feel sheepish to admit that I clung unto a new prayer which said "oh God I just pray that I don't know anyone on that flight" However, as if I was being totally ignored the manifest came out and the list of people I knew felt endless I couldn't bear to peak at my Facebook page lest I become laden with grief. Now days after the sorrow is still rife, the sorrow is no longer on the increasing number of casualties or more frustrating the loved ones we happen to know directly or indirectly, but a sorrow directed at our feeling of helplessness, especially when the resolve to make it right is weakened by the thought of the challenges that flood to our minds immediately we dare to think about a "disaster" free country.
My friend was upset for many reasons after the crash, like all of us she was also in the dilemma of who to blame, she criticised me for putting up a picture of the crying President on my profile, saying "It is heart breaking and that ***** is shedding Crocodile tears" she further went ahead to acknowledge that in a different plot, 20 people died in Bauchi...... but then what I found more thought provoking was the following:
"So tell me, how do you live by LUCK? the day you did not go to church and your church is bombed you say you are lucky Thank God, because you changed your flight from evening to morning and it crashed you are lucky. You miss your flight, then you are lucky? You did not go to the market on the day it was bombed, then it is testimony time. How long can we be lucky?
It is this same question I have been asking myself subconciously, at the risk of sounding like a staunch believer of science I wonder.... I feel heavy in my heart to say the words but I wonder how many more innocent lives will have to be sacrificed before we get it right. My friend thinks Luck isn't enough, I share this sentiment but I would also like to ask, will it be justifiable to simply blame it on fate and the inevitability of Death?
Again my heart goes out to all the grieving families, may God in his infinite mercy grant you the fortitude to bear the irreplaceable loss
